Saturday, October 31, 2015

August 2015

It was a cool morning after the rain, unfortunately I had to wake up for my gynae appt at Mt E Novena.

Woa seh.. First time to private hospital, lobby like hotel... The clinic I went is so posh ! No wonder people prefer to go private !

 Everything was bearable, the waiting time.. The scan can be done immediately without waiting and waiting for 2 hours to be review by doctor. Everything is fine.. I have to follow up with him again.

Sunday, is ah gong bdae, and my first time see my youngest cousin !
 SG50 PH ! Sentosa !
Bought Mac breakfast then to sentosa.. Managed to tan or 2 hours before we felt the rain drop.

Contigecy plan .... Decided to go for steamboat....


Then after that, went to peek at jay...OMG.... i was so happy to see him like finally !


Had lychee mojito and churros.. not fantastic.... waste calories.....


                                                         First met with Sam and Eddy first..




Went to Rozali's black house for open house. Lots of fun and comfort with them.....






On the Monday, went for 90 min body combat then body pump and 35min of trainer.... from someone yesterday's emo  Looking better than last time but still must work harder ! So someone had pick me from gym because he sort of make me piss,,,,



Coincidentally, all 3 of us wearing strips to work !


                                              Early Bdae Celebration with Faz..... Martini !

                                                     Seafood Platter at boat quey! Tequilla shot at Harris !


 Thank You Marco for the advanced Birthday cake.. Thats sweet of you !




Compang DND

How do i look ?

With the team

With the Gals

The junior gals in the team !

After DND, i get to meet my beloved BB J.... It felt so warmth and happy to see him.... Cant explain why I would fall for him in that short time, It just too comfortable to be by his side, nothing else don't seem to matter....Not the most handsome looking guy, but the cutest to me.....Warmth of your hand, passionate kisses....

Our Magical Journey

BB J, requested to know about the address of the blog... I asked him to find, but i am guessing he is really not to smart to get to here.....

So the way we have known each other was unconventional, I would never have thought to have such a best friend in this way... From texting 7am-7pm, almost everyday. Things changed a little when I was out with Joe ( my ex 15 years ago ), and I could only thought of him, someone that I has never met before, but we have everything and anything to talk about under the stars !

The first time we met was coincidental and planned. He knew that I was going to Sentosa, so he had convince his family to go adventure cove. While heaven was on his side, it started to drizzle when we tan, so we decided to go RWS to have steamboat.

That's the time he finally msg me, and I told him I was in RWS and not Palawan. I was very curious to steal a peak of him, so off i go from the lunch leaving my dear friend behind. I have attempted to look for him in a pool of people.... He have also managed to turn back for me... While I manage to see him, I say ok and bye, cause there is nothing much I can do. While I admit he is not that tall that I thought or wish for, there is just something I like about him. I like the way we talked, comfortable, no stress and happy, most important we somehow can connect intellectually, there is something very important for me.

So after the steamboat, we decided to walk, and try to find him. But then, I just didnt know how to get to the place he is at. Eventually when we got the place he was at, we walked pass  him and he didnt know. HP decided to have a smoke break when i decided to go to the toilet.

This was it, we came out of the toilet together, and saw each other ! Awkward , it was something we been wanting to, to meet each other, yet we were totally unprepared for the randomness. But BB J was cool, he waved Hi, and started to talk, despite he insisted he was shy and kept looking at the wall ! I felt the awkwardness and left.... Disappointed with no hug and kiss from my new bestie.

The very next day, he actually came from one end of Singapore to over my house just to meet me properly to have a late night tea. He kept asking me why am I smiling.. Obviously right, cause i am stress free and happy. Times flies when you are happy... It was rather special to have someone to walk you home slowly, but my house was kinda of near.

The first time holding hand, the first time hugging, and the first kiss, passionate kiss...


BB, somehow fate has got u to be smarter and found here.. As I left my browser on the phone and he manage to see it while searching for movie...I was stunned when he showed me on his phone... OMG ! Me and my ex really history....... It was then...

I really love you.... I am terribly sad and to know you are leaving in few weeks time. Yet, I know i cannot do anything but to see you leave me... Maybe, we really can understand each other very well, even without speaking. Deep down, I know you wont leave not because of whatever reason u think it is, is ur comfort zone... I am really nobody..... Your love might not be that great enough for u to do that.


Like I say," When the love of your life chose the life he loved without you!"

Saturday, August 8, 2015

2nd Half of July 2015...

Went to have lunch at Tanjong Pagar and then to airport to peek at how Darren look like !


                                     So been using thr arc trainer after gym classes !


Went to cut my hair then decided to have a drink at wine connection !
One of those nights, you need to tell yourself to be strong moving forward. Even thou is weird for a woman to be sitting at the bar by hersel

Karmal had open house, so i travel to Bukit Batok.


                                                        Photo session with batchie !

                              Quick shot with faili when his taxi meter fare is running !




Lunch with family, at Bedok Mall - Canto paradise

                                                                 My niece and Me

Life goes on !

The day after I was rejected by my date. Went for body pump and then went to cross trainer.

I feel that i am not good enough.

Eve of Hari Raya, went for back to back class, Almost doze off in the body balance.



Went to meet Hui Ping in the morning for Sun tan..



Went to Siloso beach because it was the nearest, sat down and have breaskfast then sun tan.

Amazingly, I really enjoy it, guess this is what I am. The beach, sands and sea complete me.

During the 4years, he had never bring me to sentosa beach not even at my request. Not even to hold my hand to walk.


Went to Tanjong beach, reminiscing almost 9 years ago when I first knew Justin.

Subsequently, went back to Palawan to have a drink. I could really sit there and do nothing for the whole day!




Totally love it

14th July 2015 - Amazing dream experience !

It was an indescribable amazing night with Darren. We knew each other from OKC, and we have chatted for 2 weeks from morning to night. I kind of like him although he is annoying and rather quite secretive. Some unhappiness came up just before the meet up. I am glad that we met up.He had really made me feel good for almost everything.

While I was expecting a white Suzuki swift to pick me up, suddenly it became a bmw hard top convertible.



Somehow, feeling awkward and silent in the car on our way there.  Maybe I really make him more awarkard. It really feel different to be in a convertible especially when is your dream card. Kinda of wanna wave ur hand and party with his music in the car.





This is the old Jewel Box, that I came like 4-5 years ago.





 He have convinced me to take the outdoor seats, which I am glad that I took , it has amazing view from the top. When the sun has set and it was amazing to see the stars shinning. Something I could do all night. I haven had such a relaxing time for a long long time. I kinda of enjoy it, it would be better if I had his attention. Oh well, but I kinda of learn that they are still rich nice guys out there who sincerely just looking for someone special. He is really a gentleman. Real gentle giant.



He told me in the car, would I be insulted if he told me I am not his type. 

Actually I kinda of feel it, but I really enjoyed the 2weeks chatting, although it nonsense chat. And he is gracious enough to do that. I cant help it if I am not his type, not say I cant stalk him or what. But I really miss chatting with him.

I hate meet up now, it really changes everything. But it was really an enjoyable 2 weeks with texts and phone call.

Darren, you have made a different to my life,  moving forward. Because of you, everything was happier slightly crazier. I still kinda of like and miss you but i wont stalk or irritate you. Take good care and i really hope to see you around. 

I had a good sleep yesterday, really good one although I woke up every 2-3 hours.

1 month anniversary

Wednesday.
At least I manage to get quite a good rest yesterday. Before 12, sleep til 5, pee and manage to went back to sleep. Yea, can be bother to really stalk him.

I went  for body pump again. Seem quite fun . Kinda of regret not trying earlier, at least I got it started. The hip raiser made me err… some how feeling sexy .Went for cycling and then the trainer. Kinda of fun, and based on the machine, it seem to burn more calories than the treadmill.




Tuesday
I slept like 1am but woke up like 4am and I couldn't fall back to sleep. Feel too excited and couldn't relax. I wonder if the vitamin he gave me contains caffeine.

Prepare at 6am to hit the gym for 7am body combat class. And I make it to the class. I think I am crazy, but there are crazier people in the class too.... Not a few, quite a handful.

Rush to wash up and prepare like mad. And the crowd at raffles is indeed crazy crazy.
Manage to rush to office  a slightly y later, hot and sweaty.

 

Monday.
Yea, I was suppose  to meet Darren, but he stood me up. So I took a bus to mbs to walk by myself. Had a very expensive laksa with a drink that cost $9.20. But I guess that’s the more affordable dinner. Walked around, but even with my ferragamo shoes, nobody seem interested to entertain me. Fair enough, I most likely wont buy from there anyway.





But I do feel good and look good with the shoes.
I know what you want, you don’t want me in your life.
Yeah... Bazaar are not meant for me, even though i travel and see it everyday. I dont want to experience it any more...



 Met Yan ting for dinner on tuesday and then MSW durian


 Present from Japan from Yan Ting !



 On the way home, ah jie caled me, and another MSW durians !


But I do feel good and look good with the shoes.
I know what you want, you don’t want me in your life.