The unexpected

Just came back from PS - Dinner and catch, up with Justin Wee, Julius Eng, Johnson Siew, and Jody Qiu.. All the J-ss...It was really great catching up with you all... Justin still a physiotherapist at TTSH, going for his master soon, and be bonded for 4 years. Johnson just changed to a new job from st to jetstar asia. From "zeng" the plane, to repair the plane...... Julius is still at ST.........

Johnson shared a very interesting story with us.. It was damn fucking funny... Oh my God... Is like the highlight of the night.. Nothing beats that..

During one of the nights in April 2011, he received a call at 0230hrs

P - Where are you ?
J - at home sleeping
p - Where is your bike ?
j - downstairs
p- No, is with us...

(P is police, J is Johnson )

For a period of 6 months, his bike was used for joyride at nights without him knowing until police caught the guy at a road block when he tried to run away. He pumped his petrol full, and the guy will used until reserve just enough for him to go to petrol kiosk. It happen mostly weekend night and sometimes, the guy clock mileage about 100km. He thought it was petrol leaking, went to workshop and it was not.... Till the day the person was caught...

Justin laugh until he mention that crime watch will make a movie for him..... We even propose, u should ask the guy to pay u, and share the bill. This guy also parked his bike back to the same lot and same position for him. We say that is quite smart, instead of taking his bike for once, he used and never pump petrol, in the long run, is actually a long term savings....

Justin and ws listening to Mr Brown.

But while everything is going on. I received a msg from Justin " Toy passed away" and i was like u got to be kidding, wrong name... But i know he wont msg me for no reason. It was true. He died because of rta.... ( that's y i gave up bike after prac 5 )

The president of Harley Davidson club ( MRMC ), died in a rta.... I would not expected it from him, yet life is fragile and unexpected. I didn't like him, but i am hit hard by the news. I dun know what happen...... From some point of view, I guess to die together because of bike might be the happiest things for him. As far as i know, his mum just passed away few months back. Life can be really short..... Doctor can predict the birth of your arrival, but not your death and how ?

From a ex-paramedic view, is sad, is accident, is tragic. We indeed should treasure life. in the view of financial planning, I hope, his family is taken care of properly, financially. May God Bless upon you.

Milonguera Dancer

The Milonguera Dancer and Her Body

by Raul Cabral
"The milonguera's body is pure sensitivity. When she dances, all her senses are sharpened and channelled into her dance. She builds the structure of her body from the base, her feet. Placing her weight on her whole foot including her heels, her energy surges and she stretches her body from her waist upwards as if she were the string of a violin vibrating at the slightest touch. The milonguera is supple, but toned, soft, but with nothing loose (hips, for instance).

Her body is one, whole. She doesn't hang on her partner, weighing him down, but keeps her own balance, thus she is light. She doesn't efface herself, her presence is notable. She glues her chest to her partner's, that is all.

She is sweet through her gentleness - characterizing her femininity -moulding herself to her partner until it feels as if he were wearing her. She waits, follows, never anticipates. She comes along on his voyage, synchronizing her steps, mirroring his, never rushing. She dances close, around him, requiring little space. She neither breaks their contact nor throws her partner off balance.

Not using their embrace to stabilize herself, she keeps her body axis tilted slightly forward, even when walking backwards. Her weight is on the inside of the balls of her feet, but her whole foot, including her heels are in contact with the floor.

The milonguera knows if she separates herself from her partner, she won't get the information from his body. Therefore she is continuously tuned to the messages he emits from his chest. She feels the messages, doesn't analyze them, doesn't think about what he or she is doing.

The milonguera is pure feeling, rediscovering at every instant the magic of tango."

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How I wish we can use this concept in the real life..... The ladies can be independent....

Learning Lesson,,,,

For the last 3 days, has been quite a learning experience.. Listen, analyse, and plan... but no action yet.......

Yesterday, was not in the best mood of socialising, of what happen in the morning. It just dampen my mood.. I rather be alone in the office enjoying the peace and quiet, while everyone is out for lunch... When they came back, I decided to lunch myself.........

I was so tired, my brain was so fried, i felt like resting but just cant fall into sleep.... Then it was so called the party time.... Since i was not in the socialise mood and i know that i need to eat before I drink to avoid gastric pain. I didn't know i can do bartender, waitress, camerawoman, drinking simultaneously.

Today, while at Robert's house at sky11, was such an wonderful experience. Show flat kind of setting, plus is the AL fresco dining and chill out area that I like. I would stay there just at the balcony for the whole day, looking out to the unblocked view... with the breeze, highly possibility of dozing off........hat irritate you.

Eating with people that click with you, even when you are not the same team, is so much so better then people in team, he same team yet irritating... simlple fact, they are just from your team, not your friends. If things happen, they just use their mouth, not actions.... I also believe, thing are done, and some are

Then came, when he asked everybody to sit at the balcony.. and it started... A visit to the house, which I though probably will end before 2200hrs, stretches....... and it feel like a powerpact or formal meeting minus the fact where is a nice place and different speaker.

The calling - the Goals...

So many thoughts and emotions coming to my mind right now.... What is it that, I dun see, to be achieving what I know i can achieve... What am i not doing not right ? I know i can do it, but it seem like as i get older, i dun seem to be so focus and fight for what I want anymore.. I simply just change my plan or do not see the goal I used to set anymore.. Where are those times when i Know what i wanted ? When i so want to get a driving license that i work part time at Quickly bubble tea as a server which pay me at $4.50 per hour so that i can learn my driving at $20 per hour. I worked like hell, carry stuffs, smell like fried chicken so that i get what i want.. I simply dun get any luxury item, all went to driving. I was even doing canoe polo at that point of time, leading as vice-captain as the female team... Things that matters to the mind seem to vanish....

I remember 2007 was also so called consider a not so smooth year for me... I had intention to leave after the 2 years bond as a operational paramedic... But at that time, BGR affected me badly, the only thing I told myself I would not drown my sorrow in Alcohol like Ling.. I went to gym so often with omar and all, sometimes alone, spending up to 1hr at the treadmills looking at the streets of orchard..... I cut my hair and i did slim down alot.. I felt better and confidence... The year when economy got better, and there was so much more bonus in my whole of the 6 years there...

I decided to go study a degree to plan for the future ( which is not so relevant yet ) , while people are happy taking their bonus to spend.. Every Penny including my monthly pay goes to my schools feels which cost $23000 in 16 months ( $1437 goes to the school fees ). I didnt know what i did it, i have never took any loan, expect for the first semester, which i took 12 months installments. Thank God, I manage to finance the degree myself. No clothes, no shoes, no makeup stuffs, limited perfume collection, saving on parking and erp.....

During the 16 months, I look so horrible.... rushing for projects, begging people to change duties or covering me duties, spend many hours in the night shift to read up and catch up on studies... working 6-7/8 weekend....... The day i know i going to received my Bachelor of commer (with double majors in Hospitality & tourism and Marketing ), everything was so worth it.. I did it with my own energy, that not much people in my work place can achieve.

Along the way, I did not have any specific goal that I wanted to achieve. Probably i am still lost and wondering somewhere in the space, and I do not like it... I do not like it when I have nothing to work on.... I feel useless and worthless which i know myself that i am quite knowlegeable and useful.....

I just felt that I motivate and influence people better than for myself... fehrin went to study mass communications, had his diploma and went into sia, probably just a slight push from me. I think i need to push people to push myself.

Today, powerpact, floreence shared how can we achive our goal like star club or MDRT with the simplest calcualtion that people tend to forget. In the current situation, Zul is doing his climb360 project, i might not be that good, but i am sure that i can do certain planning and forsee certain situation arising... Whatever that I told and calculate for him is true before I went for today's powerpact... So what did it came out from ?
YOU MUST SUCCEED BEFORE I CAN SUCCEED ! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN !

After missing in action from the services from the Sunday's service.. Going back to be with the Lord is definately GREAT especially when you have company.... Althought BC feel more like home, somehow or rather @ Hope, certain things do speak to me ! ( Hmmm.... nope..... dun hope that i will convert there..open discussion )

Just like yesterday, the Call.. Of course, everybody has a different calling God.. Whether u are a paramedic, to help people in need, you are a police, to fight crime with partners , financial planner to do wealth management, doctors to cure sickness doing missionary...... I remembered when i applied as a paramedic, with the thousands of applications and the business background, I prayed hard everyday, I can be a paramedic, to save life and touches people life with the grace from God to do his job.... That i will be a bridge so that people can cross using me, to reach his kingdom...

Nobody say life is easy, even with some obstacles, could be how God wants us to learn, in order to be a better person in life, to ride through the storm.

I wish to teach, but not in the sense of school education.. I want to be a trainer, and keep on talking at work not personal life... Is quite tiring to talk and talk and think and think..... It really feel good not to talk and think, taking a break to see things and learn from it, and appreciate life.

While at the medical coverage for rubgy last week under the HOT HOT SUN and heat.... I learnt something, this guy was defending his team by preventing the attacking the team to score.. He pushes him down, the attacking guy slipped a little, but he continue to dash, with that little push, he score beauitful in the middle of pole ( whatever is called )..... There are times when things are down, he could have gone down without the fight, probably the goal wasnt important in the scoring, probably not everyone saw the move.. But it indeed strike me......

I should really take some time to plan for MYSELF in order for me to help people with the expertise and knowledge in according to God's plan..... Probably just gonna keep on trying till I succeed in life... in value or in respect.....

Dun know what to typr

For the last few days, i came into the new post, but i didnt know what to post or to update. I simply cant think of what to type.( then i type and type but is not saved by blogger !, haiz ) I remember, I normally post when i was super sad, piss or if there are some interesting events. Am I too happy that i had nothing to post or I simply dun know what to say.

While the raindrops fall this morning, I realise that there are actually too many things that happen, then i may even forgot how i felt it before. Things have not been smooth for the last few months and all, but life still goes on. Nobody gonna pity or help you.


Somehow along the way, I realise as a financial planner cum real estate agent, and as a personal consultant to close friends. I helped, solved, give advise to their problem more than myself. Contradict to it, I enjoy giving advice and solving people problem more than solving my own problem.

Along my journey, I realise that there are people who can give me the guidance on certain issue, which i had to face the hard fact and deal with it myself face-to-face.

Phuket 20011

One of my favourite food in Thailand - Corn !

Must eat - Phai Thai in seafood, chicken or prawn from ROADSIDE only...

I am scare of fishes, there are so close to me, I seriously shouted !

Beautiful place - Maya Bay, truly enjoy myself there, swimming and playing along...

You are my sunshine...

Although I am in Phukt right now, I wish i Had my sunshine with me...

There are alot of thing you made me realise and do it... Somehow or rather...

Since when, did we become so close, or what made us so close ?

What is what ? and how ? Anybody can tell me?

You made me realise how far I was away from God, for period of time.

So much so that, I wanna go back worship with you.

But i know, you are secretive and busy..... so.... no choice...