2nd Half of July 2015...

Went to have lunch at Tanjong Pagar and then to airport to peek at how Darren look like !

                                     So been using thr arc trainer after gym classes !

Went to cut my hair then decided to have a drink at wine connection !

One of those nights, you need to tell yourself to be strong moving forward. Even thou is weird for a woman to be sitting at the bar by hersel

Karmal had open house, so i travel to Bukit Batok.

                                                        Photo session with batchie !

                              Quick shot with faili when his taxi meter fare is running !

Lunch with family, at Bedok Mall - Canto paradise

                                                                 My niece and Me

Life goes on !

The day after I was rejected by my date. Went for body pump and then went to cross trainer.

I feel that i am not good enough.

Eve of Hari Raya, went for back to back class, Almost doze off in the body balance.

Went to meet Hui Ping in the morning for Sun tan..

Went to Siloso beach because it was the nearest, sat down and have breaskfast then sun tan.

Amazingly, I really enjoy it, guess this is what I am. The beach, sands and sea complete me.

During the 4years, he had never bring me to sentosa beach not even at my request. Not even to hold my hand to walk.

Went to Tanjong beach, reminiscing almost 9 years ago when I first knew Justin.

Subsequently, went back to Palawan to have a drink. I could really sit there and do nothing for the whole day!

Totally love it

14th July 2015 - Amazing dream experience !

It was an indescribable amazing night with Darren. We knew each other from OKC, and we have chatted for 2 weeks from morning to night. I kind of like him although he is annoying and rather quite secretive. Some unhappiness came up just before the meet up. I am glad that we met up.He had really made me feel good for almost everything.

While I was expecting a white Suzuki swift to pick me up, suddenly it became a bmw hard top convertible.

Somehow, feeling awkward and silent in the car on our way there.  Maybe I really make him more awarkard. It really feel different to be in a convertible especially when is your dream card. Kinda of wanna wave ur hand and party with his music in the car.

This is the old Jewel Box, that I came like 4-5 years ago.

 He have convinced me to take the outdoor seats, which I am glad that I took , it has amazing view from the top. When the sun has set and it was amazing to see the stars shinning. Something I could do all night. I haven had such a relaxing time for a long long time. I kinda of enjoy it, it would be better if I had his attention. Oh well, but I kinda of learn that they are still rich nice guys out there who sincerely just looking for someone special. He is really a gentleman. Real gentle giant.

He told me in the car, would I be insulted if he told me I am not his type. 

Actually I kinda of feel it, but I really enjoyed the 2weeks chatting, although it nonsense chat. And he is gracious enough to do that. I cant help it if I am not his type, not say I cant stalk him or what. But I really miss chatting with him.

I hate meet up now, it really changes everything. But it was really an enjoyable 2 weeks with texts and phone call.

Darren, you have made a different to my life,  moving forward. Because of you, everything was happier slightly crazier. I still kinda of like and miss you but i wont stalk or irritate you. Take good care and i really hope to see you around. 

I had a good sleep yesterday, really good one although I woke up every 2-3 hours.

1 month anniversary

Wednesday.

At least I manage to get quite a good rest yesterday. Before 12, sleep til 5, pee and manage to went back to sleep. Yea, can be bother to really stalk him.

I went  for body pump again. Seem quite fun . Kinda of regret not trying earlier, at least I got it started. The hip raiser made me err… some how feeling sexy .Went for cycling and then the trainer. Kinda of fun, and based on the machine, it seem to burn more calories than the treadmill.

Tuesday
I slept like 1am but woke up like 4am and I couldn't fall back to sleep. Feel too excited and couldn't relax. I wonder if the vitamin he gave me contains caffeine.

Prepare at 6am to hit the gym for 7am body combat class. And I make it to the class. I think I am crazy, but there are crazier people in the class too.... Not a few, quite a handful.

Rush to wash up and prepare like mad. And the crowd at raffles is indeed crazy crazy.
Manage to rush to office  a slightly y later, hot and sweaty.

 

Monday.
Yea, I was suppose  to meet Darren, but he stood me up. So I took a bus to mbs to walk by myself. Had a very expensive laksa with a drink that cost $9.20. But I guess that’s the more affordable dinner. Walked around, but even with my ferragamo shoes, nobody seem interested to entertain me. Fair enough, I most likely wont buy from there anyway.

But I do feel good and look good with the shoes.

I know what you want, you don’t want me in your life.

Yeah... Bazaar are not meant for me, even though i travel and see it everyday. I dont want to experience it any more...



 Met Yan ting for dinner on tuesday and then MSW durian

 Present from Japan from Yan Ting !



 On the way home, ah jie caled me, and another MSW durians !

But I do feel good and look good with the shoes.

I know what you want, you don’t want me in your life.